CHEATING HEART.

One, Two, Three, Four

Or was it In and out?

I couldn’t remember which exercise I was supposed do for shortness of breath.

“Hold on to reality” I could hear Dr. Nata’s voice say “look for something real and focus on it. Anxiety is an illusion, it makes you believe. . .”

Okay, looking for something real and focus on it. Something real, something real... my eyes darted around the room, something real. Unfortunately the only thing real was the very thing causing my anxiety attack - My boyfriend and my best friend on my bed. . . sounded like one of those tongue twisters.

My boyfriend and my best friend on my bed

My best friend and my boyfriend on my bed,

On my bed were my best friend and my boyfriend.


An all B Tongue twisters...Best friend, Boy friend, Bed, Banging. Oh freak I didn’t think of that, my boyfriend is banging my best friend on my bed. Take that Dr. Puss in boots Seuss. Puss in boots...Pussy in booty. Ooops! I quickly covered my mouth. I started to laugh... not The it’s so funny, I can’t stop laughing laugh, it was the I think I’m going insane because I’m laughing like a mad person laugh

I laughed harder when I saw the expressions on their faces go from guilt and shock to confusion. I managed to control myself when she started to slowly roll off the bed, eyes darting around looking for her clothes I suppose. I saw her underwear by my feet and bent to pick it up. I was about to throw it at her when I noticed something

“Hey" I said waving the underwear "I bought this for your birthday” Another B word I thought

“My best friend is banging my boyfriend on my bed with the undies I bought for her on her birthday” I started to snicker and then giggle.

“Sisi...” his voice which for some reason sounded so far away brought me out of my trance. I dropped the underwear on the bed.

Oh my God!

“I have to... I have to get out of here” I said but he quickly jumped out of the bed and blocked my exit.

“Sisi listen”

“Get out of my way!” I screamed “and go put on some fucking clothes”

“Sisi...” it was her “I...we... “

I turned to her

“Don’t you dare!” I lashed out “Don’t you fucking dare or I’m going to rip your tongue out”

She quickly took a step back. He was still standing blocking my exit.

“Get out of my way, Bode”

He opened his mouth to say something and that’s when I grabbed it . . . his penis. Whatever he was going to say quickly became a groan; his eyes filled with pain were bulging out of his head. His painful groans gave me a thrill, so I squeezed and pulled harder, he seemed almost paralyzed to do anything, so I squeezed even harder. He managed to let out a squeal

“Sisi, pleeease”

I looked straight into his eyes and said

“If thy penis causes you to sin, pluck it out” and yanked it some more. His eyes were turning red and tears streaming down his face. He looked ridiculous, almost hunched over, his face covered in sweat and tears. If cheating on me with my best friend didn’t erase all the love I had for me, seeing him like that...did it. I released him and he dropped to the floor. I turned to look at my friend, she was half way dressed.

“I guess that’s that then” I said and stepped over Bode, curbing the urge to kick him in the face and slammed the door over her frantic calling of my name.

"Dr. Seuss didn't write Puss in Boots" I thought, tears streaming down my face, as I drove away from my shattered life.